I am living with the fact that there is a hovering sense of
emptiness. sorrow. sadness. hollowness.
The question of why bother? What difference does it make if I
get out of bed? I feel like my limbs are frozen in fear. The feeling that I must
sleep because that option is the only one I have.
I read something from
thebloggess.com and she talked about how depression lies. I hate being lied to.
I hate that my mind/body/soul are fighting a battle against a liar.
How do you win when it is your own body you are fighting?
I am doing my best to take it second by second. If I look
too far forward, panic hits. I want to be better.
That is why I will do my best not to be scared. To fight
back with everything I have.
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