Six Flags! Week 1 (Day 6)

Today was Six Flags. It was kinda yucky and rainy. Bright side was Cracker Barrel!

 

 

On our way, Triboro Bridge

Nice view of Yankee Stadium

GWB

 

we all had a nice laugh over the 'humps'

 

Amber and I split funnel cake and chocolate ice cream

 

and the best end to the day

 

 

Breakfast (420 cal)
Everything bagel w/cream cheese before heading off to Six Flags

Lunch (380 cal)
Funnel cake with ice cream

Snack (100 cal)
Kellogg's Special K Pastry Crisp

Dinner (939 cal)
Chopped Sirloin steak
mac n cheese
mashed potatoes
dumplings

Snack (360 cal)
1 cup walnuts

Water (8 oz)
6 cups

Week 1 (Day 5)

I am so sore from the concert last night. I feel like I can barely move. Willie wants to go to EDC at Citi Field to see if we can catch any of the music, but I'm not so sure about it right now. We have Great Adventure tomorrow, so tonight may turn into cleaning and then relaxing.

Either way, I had a Non-Scale Victory (NSV) this morning. The top I bought a week ago to go to the Biggest Loser Casting in Philly, is a little looser than it was! In just a week. I can't wait to do my measurements Sunday!



Breakfast (100 cal)
Kudos Snickers Bar

Lunch (190 cal)
Nature Valley Oats 'n Honey Bar

Snack (183 cal)
Home made Trail Mix
(craisins, walnuts, pecans)

Dinner (1108 cal)
Cheeseburger w/bun
Broccoli (roasted in oven, meh)
Roasted Potatoes (yummy)


no snack


Water (8 oz)
9 cups  (apparently, I was thirsty)

Week 1 (Day 4)

Today is a 'rest' day, but I'm not sure how much resting I did. I really wanted to get up at 6am and do a walk, but Amber said I shouldn't since we had the concert tonight. I think she was right.

It was really hard to eat breakfast. I forced myself to eat throughout the time at work. I left work at 2 for the concert. I basically ate all day long. I never got hungry and I was actually annoyed with food.

Got home, ate dinner, got ready, went to the concert, got home at 12-ish.

Now here's where I had an oopsie. I kinda had rice-a-roni and milky way. I used all my exercise calories, so I didn't go into the red, but I ate over 2000 calories. I know what happened and I know how to combat it in the future.

No more dinners at 4 pm!


Paramore!!

Breakfast (139 cal)
1 cup cantaloupe
1 cup honeydew

Lunch (183 cal)
Craisins, Walnuts, Pecans

Dinner (1139 cal)
Taco Salad (made with rice)

Paramore Concert!!!

Snack (100)
Fudge Bar

Oopsie Dinner (800 cal)
Rice-a-roni
Milky Way Bar

Water (8 oz)
7 cups

Week 1 (Day 3)

Today was awesome! I started using the My Fitness Pal app that Kim suggested. I really like it. It keeps track of EVERYTHING. I made some smarter choices because of it. Only draw back, I wish there was an option to not have the exercise calories added into the daily allowance. Other than that, it rocks!

I did a 2 mile walk with Sammy at 7PM. I chose the route this time, so it wasn't as wonky.

 I'm really proud of myself today. I was really tired and sore, but I knew it had to be done. I walked with my new shoes, which started to hurt around the 1 mile mark. I wanted to slow down while doing my "hills," but I pushed through. Thank goodness for music!

I came home and hopped in a really hot shower. It felt so good to feel my muscles relaxing. I really need to figure out a post workout stretch routine. Especially since my calf muscles have been so tight lately.

After the shower was dinner, some tv, and sleep by 10PM.

What I ate:

Breakfast (140 cal)
1 cup Cantelope & 1 cup Honeydew

Lunch (470 cal)
 Tuna Sandwich

After workout snack (45 cal)
1/2 chewy oatmeal raisin bar

Dinner (1225 cal)
Taco Salad* (cheese and sour cream)
*I made it on a bed of lettuce and only crumbled 3 chips on top.

Exercise
1 mile walk from train (200 cal)
2 mile walk in park (600 cal)


This was my first day and I definitely hit my goal for the day. I also learned a few things. I need to incorporate a few more snacks during the day, and have a lighter calorie dinner. Especially on rest days.

Week 1 (Day 1)

I decided to track my workouts here. I walk everyday for minimum 1 mile since I take the train home, but I don't think I'm gonna journal that if it's all I do that day. I think this will help me long term. I'll be able to see patterns and diagnose any plateaus as they happen. (Plus, I'm neurotic and this is my life lol)

I guess yesterday was Week 1 Day 1. That's how I'll keep track maybe. Who knows, I could change my mind.

In addition to my 1 mile walk home from the train, I went on a 2.5 mile walk with Sammy last night.

 

 

I let him lead the way, stopping a bit when he needed to, which made for an interesting looking route! I would have gone faster, but I'm actually quite glad he was there to slow me down a bit.

 

I took some pictures during our walk:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I had to run into Key Foods for mushrooms for dinner, or it would have read 2.5 miles. I enjoyed it, and I think Sammy did too!

Starting over

I am starting over. I am putting myself, and my health, first. I am going to be me, just with improved health. For the first time in my life. 26 years people.

I never thought I would be ok with proclaiming my weight to people. Especially online. Even though no one may ever see this blog, or my number, it was scary. Until now. Now I own it. I did this to myself. It's not okay, but that was my reality. Now, I'm ready to stand tall and say 'Never again.’

At my highest, only a few short months ago (September 2012), I was 320 pounds. Now, May 2013, I am 280. That's 40 pounds. FOURTY. That's 39 more than I thought I could lose when I started. I was in a severe depression at the time and something snapped. I woke up, and realized I wouldn't be around for all of life's big events if something didn't change.

I got a job that required 2 hours of commuting each way. I also had to walk 1.5 miles. So round trip, I was walking a minimum of 3 miles a day. The weight started coming off. Slowly, but that was ok. Then, I began eating better because my body demanded it. I needed healthy fuel to be able to tolerate 4 hours of commuting EVERY DAY.

After moving back to NY, I hurt my back. It set me back with exercise, but not eating. I was somehow able to find a strength I didn't know I had. I said NO. I said no to cookies, just because my back hurt. I said no to a depression that lies and tried to convince me to stay in bed. I said NO to the sad girl who never bothered fighting for herself. I fought. For the first time in my life, I fought for me and I didn't back down. I did it for everyone else for so long, and now is my time.

I'm not saying it's easy - it's actually the complete opposite. It’s freaking hard, but I'm ok with it being hard. When has anything in my life ever been easy when it was worth so much? And that's the best lesson so far. I am worth it. I can do this for me and it's ok to be a bit selfish.

I'm still learning. I wanted a brownie a few days ago, so I had it and it was the best damn brownie I had ever had. The reason it was so good, is that it had nothing to do with the brownie, but rather my thinking around it. In the past, I would have felt defeated for giving into a temptation. This time, I ate my brownie. BUT ONLY ONE! I knew I would have to add a little extra time to my exercise to make up for it, so I did 20 additional minutes of yoga.

Was it ok to have that brownie? I think so. I am proud of myself for stopping there and feeling satisfied. I didn't then go have a cheeseburger and fries or something equally bad. I ate my brownie and didn't let it derail me.

It may not be a big deal for some, but it’s the first time I accomplished this milestone in dieting and exercise. It’s so cliché to say that I’ve finally gotten it, but I think it’s just that. I had a moment with God that was so profound, I cried. I cried for the girl I used to be. I cried for that sad girl who thought she wasn’t good enough. I cried even harder when I realized I am.

Challenges come. I conquered a major one!


Here's a picture from December 2012 at about 300-ish. I'm not 100% sure.

 

 

Here's a picture from May 2013 at 280-ish pounds.

 

 

 

Look at the side by side:

 

 

The left my face is so much skinnier!

 

 

 

 



A new level of crazy

I have taken crazy to a whole new level. I have said before, I know that I’m crazy. I was so naïve then. COUGH.3weeksago.COUGH

Last night I was having a crazy feeling like I was too tired to stay awake but not tired enough to lie down and go to sleep. So do you want to know what I did? I got up and did a 1 mile exercise walk! Let that sink in. I’m insane. It was 12:40 AM and because I couldn’t sleep, I exercised.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy that I did it. I felt great afterwards. Except for the fact that I had so much extra energy I didn’t fall asleep till a little past 3 AM. And oddly enough, I’m not too sleepy so far today.

I think I may add this to my routine. I really don’t have an exercise regimen and since I’m not doing the Medifast 100% according to plan like I said here, I am allowed to exercise sooner. However, I’m scared. And I’m ok with admitting it. I know I have a problem. My problem is that I will psych myself out and set myself up for failure. I will do really well for a week and then crash and burn. I don’t count the Medifast issue. I have medical issues that need to be tended to and as long as I’m not eating a cheeseburger and fries for lunch everyday I’m doing well.

Not going to lie, I did have a cheeseburger and fries yesterday. I was stupid. I really wanted the salad which was some parmesan chicken caeser thing but the line was insanely long so I went for a burger. I felt like death afterwards. Like I felt worse than I did before surgery.  Maybe that was a good thing. I know that I’m going to want to have a bag of chips, I am totally going to want ice cream, but the question becomes, ‘How horrific will this make me feel after?’ and ‘Is it worth it?’ has become my new phrase.

I find it odd that on the day I eat a burger I also exercise after midnight. Maybe I felt guilty, but I don’t think that was it. I have been thinking about doing some sort of exercise for a while now. Who knows what my subconscious was thinking. I'm just happy I felt great after a 20 minute workout.

Now, for a really cool FYI. I have Comcast cable which I love because of the on demand. What’s really cool is that they have exercise videos On Demand! I have used Leslie Sansone’s videos in the past and still have a few dvd’s around. So to see that she is On Demand was really cool and I knew I could do it. I also saw Jillian Michaels 30 day shred but that is beyond my grasp right now which translates to that chick is nuts and I would end up throwing something at the tv so maybe I’ll wait and give her a try later.

(image found via google)

I’m not saying that the 1 mile midnight walk will be the solution to all my problems, but it’s a start. I am going to take this one day at a time. I will not feel guilty for not doing something. I am here to know that there will be days where I will not want to do anything but lay in bed and watch tv. I’m here to remind myself that it is ok to take days off, but not lose focus.

My goal is to do the 1 mile walk at least 3 times this week. Then I would like to move to the 2 mile walk the week after and do at least 3 times. I go on vacation the next week so we’ll see. I think setting a two week goal will be the best way to get back into the swing of things.

 I know that if I do the videos more than 5-6 times I get bored hearing the same thing over and over so I may just have to plug in my ipod while I do it. I wanted to add a funny picture with a caption expressing that very fact, but blogger is being crazy and won't let me upload another picture. Maybe later.

Leslie here I come!